*This is a guest post from my close friend who is in the process of saying goodbye to her child leaving for the mission field.
I asked if I could share her words because the parental heartache she gives voice to– the wrestling with entrusting her child to the Lord, is one that so many mamas will appreciate and be encouraged by.
I am preparing to say goodbye and I am not sure if I want to.
Have I been properly prepared to say goodbye?
I have to say goodbye to my daughter and her husband because they are headed out to serve our Lord overseas…
I have said goodbye to her before.
When she was little, dropping her off in the nursery was not hard, she went happily. She was not the clingy child who cried when I left her… she never even looked back. The first day of kindergarten was not too hard either. She was so excited to go to school… I admit that I did shed a few perfunctory tears. I said goodbye when she traveled to Ecuador, but her dad was with her.
I said goodbye both times she went to Niger. She didn’t travel alone and it was short term, so I survived.
College was another goodbye that was natural.
She was looking forward to meeting that new adventure.
When she got married, that was a different goodbye, because I was saying hello to the married couple at the same time. I felt a twinge of nerves as I said goodbye to the two of them last year as they traveled to determine which country they would move to. That was a hard goodbye.
And I have thought long about this next goodbye,
but I didn’t realize it would feel so hard, so sad, so final.
Our Savior has commanded us to not love the things of this world more than we love Him.
My plan was to put Him first in my life, to be the good manager who works him/herself out of a job.
I wanted to be the mom who trained herself to let her children go.
I think I failed.
I don’t want my children to leave, to have to say goodbye.
But it is not my choice; it never was.
They are not mine– they belong to their Savior, my Savior.
Even though this is hard and sad, I feel the blessings that surround me in the midst of my sorrow.
I have been an observer of God’s grace and of the generosity overflowing from His people.
I have His peace that surpasses comprehension.
I have joy in knowing that they are leaving for God’s purposes.
I am thankful that I can entrust them to a faithful creator.
I am excited for the adventure that God will take them on.
So as I say goodbye, I am hopeful it won’t be our last goodbye,
I actually hope that we will have many chances to say goodbye.
I will wait upon the Lord.
I will trust Him.
I will take Him at His word.
No good thing will He withhold from those who walk uprightly.
He will never allow the righteous to stumble.
Faithful is He who calls you, who called me, who called them,
And He will bring it to pass.
I say goodbye.
I am ready.
I am sad.
I am a mother.
A mother who says goodbye,
As she places her children into the loving hands of their–